I’ve always felt that there was something that I should be doing.Something that would make an impact, help people, change lives.But I could never figure it out.I tried and tried to find out what it was.I tried several businesses that were supposed to help myself and others get free, but I was a dismal failure at each and every one and I never felt I was really helping anyone or doing anything that would make a difference.With each business failure, I sank deeper and deeper in depression, believing that maybe this was all there was for me.Nothing special – special was only for special people – not me.
Then about 2 years ago in desperation, I finally decided that maybe I didn’t know everything, and maybe there was something to all this Personal Development stuff I kept hearing about.I started to pay attention and to read and listen and attend some calls and some seminars.I started to look at myself from the inside out.I started to practice visualization and believing in myself and what I learned about the universe and life and myself and why I am the way I am was nothing short of amazing.However head knowledge is quite a different thing than knowing it in your heart and your gut.
The stuff I learned made sense, but most of the practices and techniques I learned were either difficult or boring or repetitious or too time consuming or you had to set aside special quiet time (where my family of 6 and 2 dogs left me alone – Ha, Ha, Ha), or they were just not convincing.I consciously knew that I needed to change the way I thought, the way I focused on my goals or nothing was ever going to change, but the work was a lot harder than I thought it would be.I kept asking “HOW, HOW, HOW do I change?”
I remember thinking early on that there must be a better way that isn’t so hard.Wouldn’t it be great to find a way to help make these deep changes without having to be so darned disciplined all the time?I’d tried any number of techniques and practices and spent a good deal of money in the process and I still wasn’t any closer to making the changes I wanted to make.I got really, really, really depressed.I mean lying on the floor, boo- hooing, sobbing “What is wrong with me?” kind of depressed.This went on for awhile until one day I just took a stand against my depression and said “NO damn it.I’m not going to let this win.Right here, right now, in this very moment, I CHOOSE to be happy – Do you hear me?I CHOOSE to be happy, right here, right now!”
And from that, a little tune popped into my head
Right here and now
I am happy
Don’t cha know?
I’ve been set free
I started singing it over and over again and again and again.Day after day.It wasn’t work.It had gotten stuck in my head and I just kept singing it. And I suddenly realized that I wasn’t so depressed any more.I felt better than I had in a long time so I kept on singing.Shortly after that, it dawned on me that maybe this was it.Maybe this was the better way for me to change.It was fun and easy.I started to make up all kinds of little jingles for myself for different things I was feeling.I shared them with my daughter and one day she said “Mom, what if these could make other people feel better the way they’ve made you feel better?”And then I suddenly realized that maybe this was not only the better way for me to make the changes I needed to make – maybe this was the something I’d always felt I should be doing.Maybe other people would be able to benefit and use these little jingles to help them change as well.
That’s what started it all.Was it all a piece of cake to bring this idea, this dream to fruition from that moment on?Not hardly.It’s been a labor of love and that always means putting yourself out there and subject to criticism and there are always people ready to do just that.It’s been a lot of ups and downs and work and frustration and you name it.All the stuff it takes to build your dream.But through it all, I’ve just kept singing and singing and singing and now I offer this to you with the truest of hope that you too will use these to change the way you think and act and follow your dreams.
