I’ve been working so hard and long the last couple of years learning to manage my energy and trying to get the word out to the world about AttitudeZapz!, I sometimes get surprised that life can happen and we forget all about being conscious and present. I’ve been persistent about staying in the NOW, because I have a dream and my heart’s desire to help others like me, and my Jingles always bring me around no matter what.
Anyway, I’ve had to be especially vigilant lately to keep myself positive. With a full time job, a family, the holidays, the boys home from school, my doggies, my daughter’s horses and building this dream, sometimes I feel like I’m on the go 20 hours a day. So last Sunday I decided to just take a break and watch my Super Bowl Champion Giants take on the Eagles and move on to another Super Bowl. Ahem….
Silly I know, but I’ve been a fan since I was 7 years old and they did win the Super Bowl out of nowhere last year – it could happen. I’ve worked so hard on myself and changed my life so much in the last 2 years, it was almost a shock to find out that I could get so irritated about a football game, but irritated I did get. At least I did not throw anything like my dad used to do when I was growing up (and they lost a lot back then, so that was a common occurrence). No one else in my family is a Giants fan, but they all know how much I love them. My husband even bought me a jersey for Christmas which I was proudly wearing (along with the socks my son gave me).
By the beginning of the 4th quarter, when they Giants lost possession after that 4th down debacle, I had had it. They all kind of looked at me in shock, because I don’t think I had been that upset in a long time – weird, huh? All of my great advice that I keep giving myself and others went right out the proverbial window. I was “stupid Giants this and stupid Giants that” when my son (trying to be helpful) says – “Sounds like you are Having a Bad Day, mom, so Get Over It.”
He was quoting my very own lyrics from “Having A Bad Day”. Not so long ago my first reaction would have been to go for the juggler vein with a comment like that, but yesterday, it really opened up my eyes in a way that had not been opened before. It is beyond amazing how we can let even the silliest of circumstances control how we feel and act and react– without a single conscious thought about what kind of vibration we send out. Really something to ponder and think about.
Forget about the big things, what little things do You let control how You feel? I’d like to hear.
